A single chance to redeem myself for everything...

I just don't have time anymore.....

I don't have time to update this blog. I don't have time to properly take care of myself. I don't have time to change my life. I know what I need to do, but I just don't want to bring my world crashing down. Life is coming at me way too fast and I don't want to be another statistic of a failed life.

My hair is falling out. I don't know if it's due to stress, medications, drugs, or what......I'm too young for this shit. I need help, but I just can't do this. There is no way for me to accurately depict my feelings right now. I can't express anything. I'm not writing this for you, I'm writing this for me.

I want to give up and die. That's honestly how I feel right now. If I died right now, today, how would the rest of the year go? When would my funeral be? Who would show up? What would they say? What would they say when they find out all the things I've left behind? Heartache? Betrayal? Fear?

I just don't know. I just don't care. I just don't have fucking time.