A single chance to redeem myself for everything...

So I cut my wrist today. I don't feel like getting into it right now. I've already felt guilty about it all day today.

I sent an email to my parents asking if I can come home, but I haven't told them anything else though. I'm thinking about emailing my family doctor and telling him what I did, so that when I come home he can direct me to where I need to go. I want to go to a psychiatric hospital until I can get myself in a stable mindset. I'm still in Germany, so this will all have to wait until I can manage to get everything prepared on this end.

I'm debating on going to class tomorrow. I don't want to wear a patch on my wrist and I don't want people to see it and ask me anything, besides it's too hot to wear a long sleeve shirt.