A single chance to redeem myself for everything...

I wish to not be such a loser
I wish to not be gay
I wish to not be a druggie
I wish to be beautiful
I wish to feel good about myself
I wish to not lie anymore
I wish to find compassion in others
I wish to forget my past
I wish to not exist
I wish to find happiness
I wish to be left alone
I wish to escape my hell
I wish to go back in time
I wish to change it all
I wish to cope with life
I wish to run away from everything
I wish to have everything run away from me
I wish to sleep forever
I wish to have my dreams come true
I wish to leave it all behind

Wishing is for children and fools. I know none of this will ever come true.